Missing You

Missing You 

Missing you , 

Again , just like yesterday , 

The shadow of your back , 

Haunting me everyday 

Why am I not strong enough , 

To see you , walk away , 

Far away , Without ...

Holding my hands ? 

Why your smiles keep making 

me crying every single days ? 

Missing You , 

Until my heart cant handle anything , 

Anymore , The heavy footsteps , 

I try to left everything behind , 

But , i cant even hold my tears , 

Anymore ... 

The Dark tunnel , 

Cars everywhere , people who keep passing , 

Cold staring but nothing can console me , 

Your dark silhoutte who suddenly appeared , 

But , just passing without looking . 

Hold me , 

Because i keep missing you .. 

Skye .

Short Trip : Penang !

Assalamualaikum guys !

Hi ! 

Oh my god gais . 

Its been a while . This post has been a draft since March . I didnt have any time to do this even i left my fav kdrama just to focus for somethings , 

So , back to this post . Penang Trip . Its been a while since I last visited Penang . Maybe the last was when im in my first or second year of high schol . Wow ! 

We have adopt family here so we came to visited them after a while . I was really  close to them since before so i was so excited to met them . 

So , lets go down the trip lane . Momentoooo ~~ 

Fly ~

Fly ~

Fly ~

Its a nice trip btw . Even it was for a short time and its torturing because of the 10+ hours in the car , but still we enjoyed it ! I hope i can tour Penang in the future by myself ! I really loved to do that ! 

See you again , Penang ! 

Teacher . Kindergarten teacher .

17 April

Interview with LCKindergarten . For part-time assistant teacher .

 No expectation . 

Maybe not be taken . 

22 April . 

Got a call from them . I was accepted . Need to start working this monday . 

Excited ? No . More to nervous how will i act as a teacher . Kindergarten teacher .

No one expect . I take it as a challenge . Who say children are scared at me ?

Tada! 

25 April . 

Working gais . 

Act , working as a kindergarten teacher is one of greatest memory that i have . Working with adults , see the environment , how the children grows up and talking with them makes me realised that i lived in 20th century country . 

Its really lovely . Eventho there are some things that i cant share that hurts me a lot but , still , the children , loves me a lot . I learnt a lot from them . 

Someone caught my attention since the first day . Rafiq . Share the same name as my best friend . Love him till the end . Adorable kid . 

So , for the first day , i was quite shock when they didnt even introduce anything to me or introduce me to them . I cant say anything . Im the youngest . All the teachers are adults . I didnt even know wo i will be assist . I end up in the upper classroom . 6 years old . Tahfiz class . High expectation . What is the difference in them and the others students ? 

I saw it . They are quite fast and can talk very well . All the dua's that i didnt even memorized , they can recite it very well . They also need to be train to speak in english . Eventho they are not good , but its good to train them since kindergarten . I would do that to my kids in the future . For one week , i stayed with them . Suprisingly , i can blend well with them eventho the first day is really exhausting for me . Many things that i didnt satisfied at that time . My parents even asked me to resigned . 

So , i didnt even get to stay with them for a month . I think its only for 2-3 weeks including all the holidays. For the final week , we had trip and a few events but i didnt joined because i had my licensed class . And that's when i knew my UPU result . Its finally my final week of working . 

For the final week , i only came the last day on Friday . Its Teacher's day celebration . Something hurts me  . They asked me to sit because im not the real teacher and i didnt come for awhile . Quite disappointing because even the new teachers get to stand .

Eventho i stay seated , i still got many presents especially from my students . When i told them , that it is my last day , they all shout WHYYY hahahahaha why so cute kids . I need to go to school like all of you . I maybe stay with you for a very short time , but the time i spent , i really loved it exclude the treatments i received there . I reall loved the kids . My felings towards them are so sincere . 

I really hope they will remember me in the future . Teacher Husna  will be in memories .

My last day with them . Goodbye kids ~

In memories , my lovable not-so-called-teacher experience . 

Goodluck girls and boys . You sure will shine one day . 

Sincerely , your not-so-called-teacher . 

Truthness

Truthness 

Today , I woke up , 

Feeling empty as usual , 

The surroundings still look the same , 

Nothing ever change .

I wonder , why my mind is going blank , 

Its just i realised , I'm being myself . 

Heavy walksteps , 

The sounds of bird chirping , 

The blue sky , the one that always accompany me ,

But always behind , 

When will someone stay by my side , 

The one that will hold me tight. 

Its raining today , 

Again , I feel like in sorrow , 

The laughter has gone , 

The black sky , heavy drops start falling , 

One by one , drop by drop , 

Why i feel so lonely right now .

I miss all the memories , 

The memento keep playing in my head , 

I miss all the laughter , 

The amazing scenes , 

Where did everyone go , 

Leave without me ....

Skye . 

Awareness of Mental Health

Assalamualaikum everyone . 

Its been awhile since im updating my daily life . 

My hectic life . Rollercoaster life . 

I dont know what im thinking rn , but i think its something that i want to share about my feelings . Today , i was shocked hearing about someone dead because of depression . It is something that is unusual that makes me shocked . Maybe because , i always see him as a bubbly and cheerful person without seeing his sadness . 

But , today , I believe , DEPRESSION can kill . 

You see someone who always smile , laugh with fullest , but do you see his/her side of darkness . You need to be aware , ppl beside you might crying for help inside them . They just cant experss him .

Please , please ! Spreas kindness . Ask you beloved one is something bothering them . We shold get more awareness about mental health . Dont just punish them . Every people is different. They have different kind of sensitivity . 

Thats why in Islam , Allah said in Holy Quran , please mind your attitude and your words . 

They can kill someone else . Deeply . Without everyone known . 

I've known someone who is close to me . For me , she is an ordinary girl . But , I believe that she has a strong heart . I see that many ppl are comfortable with her and she is full of laughter . But , one day , i discoverd that she has fear of ppl . She cant stay in the crown for too long. She said she think that everyone looked at her . But , in the same time , she was a leader of a big organization , a leader to her group , and also for all assignment group , they will pick her as a leader . I always wondering how can she stand in front lead her group with that confidence . You can see she is shining more than others . But deep inside act , she crumbled by herself . She always feel lonely and because of that she always sleep and laugh more than other . 

Its always the one who smile the most , have hurt the hardest , 

Please , give some hug to this ppl . It is important to care for the other person . 

Because , again , Depression and other mental illness can KILL .

One Day Trip : Teluk Chempedak , Kuantan , Pahang !

2017 . 08 . 21 

Teluk Chempedak , Kuantan , Pahang ! 

 

We arrived quite late and its after raining , there is no sun and sunset eventually . We waited until 730 pm but even a glimpse of sun we cant see . 

So , only the memories are there . I went with le cousins . She drove it . Finally , after a few years , we finall went there withot our family .

 

There is no edited pictures in here . Im too lazy eventho my camera pic is blurry !

Fyi , there is no food hunting this time .

My face burnt quite easily . I hate it . 

Le family were picnic there . 

2D1N CELEBRATION TRIP IN CHERATING ISLAND , PAHANG

Assalamualaikum .
Hi !
Im speeding up with new posts because im afraid that i will have no time because i will start working tomorrow . (FYI , THIS POST WAS PENDING SINCE APRIL . I HAVE SOMANY DRAFT POST THAT STILL WAITING FOR MY STRAIGHT MIND TO POST IT IN THE FUTURE ,, KEKEKE ) 

 Will story about it in new post !

CELEBRATION TRIP + HOLIDAY !

So , why celebration trip ? Because it s my present after my SPM . Well , its once in a while , and they afraid after this i didnt have enough time when i enter the university . Its true btw .

Anyway , where are we going , guys ? For , Syia , who loves beaches and islands , sands and sky , wind breeze and calmness , my family decided to went to one of the best island in Pahang also Malaysia !

CHERATING ISLANG ! HERE WE GO !

Legend Resort , Cherating . 

For enquiries : click here

I shouldnt sun-bathing... But , the scenery makes me went crazy~

It suits my taste . 

Breeze , Wind , Sand , Sky , Sea , and a great Song . 

A blurry picture .

The question is ..

Which one is bigger ? The sea or the sky ? 

#CanolaMovieQuote

Sunrise view ...

Breath-taking. Im dying from happiness.

Sunset in Cherating . Its a breath-taking scenery . You should see it with your own eyes . Its worth it 

The second day . Sunrise time ! 

I went out around 6:50 a.m. There was no sun so we were waiting . Many photographer stand by to shoot there . Even in the morning ! 

A rare picture of mine . Usually , im the photographer . so what . 

The end . Lets move on guys . I hope i will come back here to fully enjoy Cherating island and show you more about this great island . See you soon , Cherating . 

Bye , my muse .