Feelings

Feelings

The memories that keep fading

The beautiful days become gloomy

Try so hard to see who will catch me

Should i love myself unconditionally

Sometimes, I try to leave the world

Running from the darkness

Try to breathe slowly, escape suddenly

Let myself withstand all of this

What is this confusing feeling

I dont believe this is momentary

Keeps dreaming its fantasy

Time keeps ticking, im still running

Can i just give up like this

Where is the flower path i should be taking

People said keep walking

But why am i keep slipping

Absurd thing makes me crying

But why i cant see anything suddenly

Things get harder, breather becomes heavier

Everything in darkness

I dont believe this is momentary

Keeps dreaming its fantasy

Time keeps ticking, im still running

Can i just give up like this

Where is the flower path i should be taking

Even when im sick, even when im collapse

The thorns keep striking

Is it okay to make mistakes

Is it okay if i start crying

Is it okay if im falling

Through the night, I will dream

I dont believe this is momentary

Keeps dreaming its fantasy

Time keeps ticking, im still running

Can i just give up like this

Where is the flower path i should be taking

Skye.

What I do when I need some Healing ?

Hi.

Assalamualaikum.

For today's post, its just a relaxing things that i want to share. What things that I do to find some healing. And maybe can be done by you without you realised.

As i reached my last teen, my thoughts became more matured. I never being a rebellious kid until now, but without i realised , my thoughts became more matured. I matured more because of the situation i lived in. 

Everything was hard. But, I strongly believe that it will become tougher in the future. There are many things that I scared. I am someone who has so many things to lose  but i still does not want to give up. 

Sometimes, it becomes something i cant explained. I need help. But, there are no hands to hold me. No shoulders I can rely..

Back to the topic, because of this things, i always find things to heal myself. Healing is important to stay sane. You need to stay sane to think properly what you can do and what you cant.

When I started my college year, a year ago, I realised I changed. Not a lot. But its just for myself. I cant adjust myself properly but still I can adapt anywhere I go. Since high school, I always enjoyed doing outdoor things, enjoy with my close friends but not to the extent that we do something too adventurous. Its still become regret for us, we dont have any memories being a rebellious students.

Because of that, I only enjoy myself when I am in my own circle. I know I cant do things properly with someone that didnt know me very well. It still hurts me.. I dont have many friends until now.

I am a homebody person. So, what i do for healing limited to what you can do at home.

1) LEARN COOKING

I dont know anything about cooking except the basic things. But, since i had a long holiday before i started my college year, I learn cooking. I try all sort of recipe about things that I want to eat. But , actually I only cook something that I want to eat and I love. SELFISH. But, if you learn it, you will find some healing in it. I enjoyed doing all the things in the kitchen in the same time i can think about many things. Try it. Its something enjoyable. Someday, I really want to join a true cooking class and learn properly !

2) READING

      

I always enjoy reading! The best genre that i really love is crime and thriller. Rarely, romance, but sometimes its cool. I also love read any online journal or online stories. Because of this, i didnt have any problem in subjects that required a lot of reading. I had a lot of interest in reading. I always make sure if i go out, I need to buy a book. I also read a lot of motivational reading. As a muslim, I also recommended you to read seerah Nabi and a lot of stories about Islam. Reading while you sipping a cup of coffee and enjoy your music is something that can give me a real healing. 

3) WATCHING MOVIES

I think this is a good solution for healing because you will completely distracted when watching movies. I dont really watch movies at cinema but it is something that i really enjoy when i hang out with my friends. I have many good recommendations of movies ! I will post it in another post :) Movies can taught you many life lessons and it will makes you reflect back on yourselves. I always find some times to relax and enjoy my fav movies. Take some times to enjoy all the great cinematography and picturesque scenes in the movie. It will give you a healing ! 

The latest movie i watched is Europe Raiders. Its a cantonese movie and if i can rate it i would give 3/5 stars! Please watch it!

      

4) WRITING

Why writing is my kind of healing ? It is because sometimes you have all those kind of thoughts but you have no one to listen. So, I prefer to write all things to ease my minds. Late night thoughts is tiring. You wants to say many things but many things held you back. Try to write what you want to say. You will find some healing in your own words when you look again."Ahh I already pass this phase." All those writings i kept it as my lyrics. I wrote all those lyrics because i want to empty my mind. And it always what i truly want to say... 

"As my eyes that look at the night sky for the last time

I tell myself that the self-torture will end tomorrow morning

I pray for the last time, to send me to heaven

Because this world was too much to be alive in

My dad would hear about me while he is working

My mom would try to wake me up from eternal sleep
Don’t cry mom and pa

I’ll see you in the next world

If I were to be born again, I’d be your child again

I’m gonna leave first.." - Jung Ilhoon, If I Die Tomorrow

5) WATCHING KDRAMA

As you know, I always enjoy my time watching all those kdramas. They show a variety of genre and always heavy with life lessons. I learnt a lot from it. Thats why I always updated all the lists of dramas i watched because it is my type of healing. You just lying there laughing and learning in the same time. I think all those kdramas fans will agree with me with this statement. HAHAHAHA. But , make sure, you know how to divide your time and not only obsessed with dramas. 

Oh, you can check my post for The best KDramas for 2017 and 2016 !

6) MUSICS

                                      

This should be on top of my list of things i do when i need some healing. Why do you need anyone when you have musics? All those lyrics can describe our inner feelings without you need to say anything. Musics is really important. It can makes you feel calm, boost your mood, improve your confidence and you can always enjoy musics. I am so picky when it comes to choose songs that i love. I always look at the lyrics first, then i can focus on the genre or the singer. Lyrics is very important. People should appreciate lyricist more than the singer itself. Its just my 2cents. But, you really try hard to find some ideas to express your feelings in the musics you created. Find some songs that suits you, sit down, close your eyes, It will bring you great healing. 

I will post another post just for my favourite playlist to be listen when it rains. 

7) ORGANIZING

Some people wouldnt agree with me for this. But, I always have a habit to organize my things when i need to do some thinking. It is my way to find some healing. I still dont know why about this. Maybe you can try it and see if you get some healing or stress >.<

So, thats all about what i do when i need to get some healing. Most of it are something that you can do when you need time alone and being a homebody person. I really enjoy being this way and its really help me to get back on my feet. 

When everything doesnt get in the way you want. Take a rest and look at in a different perception. Dont just give up! 

Everyone needs some healing!